With all the love he has felt in his heart, he just doesn’t want to go back to the cold calculating man that he was. Maybe that’s what has been driving him to hold onto her so much physically- always clinging and holding on. With every glance, what has been registering on his face these days is sheer desperation at the thought of her slipping away from him and losing her.
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All he sees now is warmth, generous spirit, giving heart, unique tendencies, and the only one he could ever love. For a very long time now, with each encounter and interaction, Joong Won has come to appreciate her quirkiness.
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How much do you want to bet that while he was running to get her back, all these thoughts went through his head. Unless his feet were rooted in sheer stupidity, I just knew he wouldn’t let her go so easily. It all came down to his gut instinct and the flood of loneliness and emptiness that swept over him for Joong Won to come to his senses. It’s like with every thought of her, he falls in love all over again. He is the only one who has said he loves her, but she never said it to him yet. Not cuz his love is stronger, but since he has voiced his feelings for her more often -it’s more acute. If they were to part, during all that time, I think he will miss her more than him. Most of the time the weight of his feelings for her seemed stronger than Gong Sil’s so she was always in the air while he looked up at her and tonight was no different. I always thought this relationship was balanced like a seesaw. How much easier does he think it will get once they have confirmed their feelings for each other all over again in the plain light of day.
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Even with just the hand holding for the first time as two people who like each other, he had a problem letting go. What he has yet to figure out is starting something can make it that much harder to end it too. Joong Won had a point about how it’s unfair for them to talk about ending it when they never really started. Sometimes even holding on once is enough to never want to let go.